It's been about 5 months since my last blog post. So much has happened, I'm not even sure where to begin. But since my first thought was to include the Vegas Strong image, I'll start there. The mass shooting that just occurred here on October 1st has changed us forever. It's so awful and has caused so many ripples and affected so many lives, yet so many people have come together to help each other and support each other, it's unbelievable. It's been inspiring on many fronts, but I'll start with my relocation and some reflections on what I believe I need to do.
I moved back to my hometown Las Vegas, NV on August 5th, 2017. It was a bit of rough drive with 2 cars and a dog, but we got here just fine and settled in East Las Vegas, not far from where I went to high school. It's taken me these past 2 months to grow and make so many realizations. I share because I think overall growth is good and it's also important to reflect on the ways we have been conditioned and the attachments we create.
In my last post I described the process in which I have decided to study climate change and focus on renewable energy. These topics are still extremely important to me and I believe in educating people and taking action wholeheartedly, however, I've made some discoveries along the way in this journey that I'd like to share.
Ever since my move to Las Vegas life has been rather challenging, I've had a lot of difficulty finding work and connecting with old friends. Nothing has really seemed to click or flow in a strong way, this is something that I'm used to, I'm used to working and being busy and creating. Las Vegas has challenged everything I know and everything I think I know.
One of the most important realizations that I've had is around identity and how we define ourselves with our careers and education.
My decision to get an education came from a desire to grow and be able to contribute much more to society that I was already contributing. What I didn't realize at the time, that in addition to an education, I needed to do a lot of work around my sense of self-worth. Having spent the last 7 years completing a Bachelor's, Master's and a GIS certificate allowed me to create an attachment to some kind of new identity. I'm so excited when I talk about weather and climate and absolutely loved teaching the subject, for a minute there I assumed that this is what I'm meant to do and no matter what I'll have this as a part of my life somehow.
I've had a big reality check, now before you jump on me and lecture me about how living in Las Vegas is not conducive to jobs in environmental science please know that I moved here to be with my family at an important time and that is a priority in my life right now. Unfortunately, I've had to explain this to other family members already who are quick to criticize decisions.
I have other friends with the same level of education who have researched and found that it could easily take 9-12 months to find the right job. I'm still very much open to whatever may come my way, but I realized that it's important to stand by everything I have learned up to this point.
During the earlier stages of my job hunt this summer I decided to change my entire online persona. I had my resume professionally written and completely redid my LinkedIn profile. I removed anything related to yoga from my personal website and all social media outlets that I'm a part of. I thought that if I disassociated from being a yoga teacher for 12 years somehow that would help me get a job in a completely new field.
I think this was the wrong decision and I just haven't felt right ever since..well..until now.
There's got to be a way that I can be a yoga teacher, massage therapist, hoop dance teacher and bonafide environmentalist without having to give any of it up.
Yoga came into my life at the tender age of 20 and has shaped me ever since, literally and figuratively.
I've been working as a massage therapist for almost 20 years and have really blossomed in the work and skill set.
I started hoop dancing 11 years ago and really took a step back during grad school, this is the one thing I need to reconnect with the most right now.
I just submitted my thesis to the graduate school, this completes the last of my Master's requierments officially.
One last paper is due for my Capstone project and I will have completed my GIS certificate. I'll have both all done and degrees conferred in December.
I haven't given myself enough credit for what just happened, it's so much, but it's so good and there is much more to come.
Thanks for reading. Namaste.
Seasoned Yogini, Massage Therapist, Dancer, Lover and Animals, the divine feminine and so much more!! This blog contains my musings, stories of challenges, inspiration and the other things that make me human in this realm. NAMASTE